have been feeling down for the whole two weeks already.. yup, it's because of the issue that we are facing now.. i knew the reaction from your mom since the beginning. that's why i have been stopping u telling ur mom about us.. we are not from the same country.. and it's far away.. i have never feel the distance between us before. but now i do.. it's not because i don't have the fire red love anymore.. it' because of what you are doing now.. i know that you want to avoid your family from finding who you are with.. calling me to delete you from my facebook and deleting what you wrote about me on your blog and your mom threathening you that she'll cut off your mobile line if she found out that we contact each other on the phone.. it's pain enough for me.. and we have not been in contact frequently like last time.. this is suffering... really.. i rather face with your family like a man... but, i can't stop from whatever you doing.. it's your decision.. you want me to stop being so paranoid.. but it's really hard... i don't wanna lose you... you said that you don't own me.. but deep in my heart, you already own me.. i can dedicate my whole life to you..
for these past two weeks i coudn't do anything right.. my best friend in college do know that i'm facing this issue.. he do tried to make me feel better.. but i keep on pulling my face for the whole time.. sometimes faking some smile... and i think now he's tired of it.. my homeworks and assignments are pilling up... and dad wants me to go home today.. my family is moving to another house tommorow. i know i should be going back.. but i still awaiting for the chance to talk to you again.. i hope that you are not avoiding me now... if you do, i'll be the most miserable man... wish everything will go back to normal soon...i'm missing you like i have never before...
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